fear

Thanksgiving turkey

When I was a kid, I learned this thing from my mother. When she would encounter a situation that displeased her, didn’t match up to her standards, or was simply to be ignored completely she would just kind of pat her hands together as if she were washing them. This action meant (in no uncertain [...]

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self/love

Once upon a time, a reader of Medicinal Marzipan admitted that she was tentative of reading stories of self-love, because she was afraid of becoming “as fat as a house.” This concept was the driving force behind the Marzipan Manifesto – where I broke the ties between self-love and indiscriminate weight gain, and I was [...]

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Breakfast

I have said it before, and I’ll say it again: I don’t like change. But, if there is anything that is unavoidable in the world, it’s change.  It seems that the more that you try to avoid change, and the more anxiety that you have about a pending lack of stability in your environment – [...]

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Day 165/365 Evidence

Yesterday I wrote about my brain on FEAR, and I pinky-promised a follow up on the step-by-step process that I utilize when I can recognize that I’m spiraling out of control (even when it is occurring at break neck speed). I alluded to the concept of Examining The Evidence. Admittedly, this has been my big [...]

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This is my brain on fear, as revealed on twitter Saturday, and the ONLY type of response that quells the tidal wave of anxiety that ensues: When my brain is hooked on fear, this is what the inside of my brain sounds like: I’m scared. I’M SCARED. F*&%. I am never going to make anything [...]

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On Letting Go

by Marzipan on March 31, 2011 · 15 comments

Fire Starter Sessions

On Monday, I was quickly perusing twitter, when I came across this tweet from the deliciously insightful Danielle LaPorte: This post got me thinking, and I felt the urge to get rid of some lingering negative thought patterns and behaviors from my life, written in the first person, because, you know, I love to dream [...]

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I have a love/hate relationship with Facebook. In fact, I have a love/hate relationship with a lot of social media, as documented here, but Facebook is the worst. The background information: I grew up in a very small town. When I was in fifth grade, I was very popular. …

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True story: this weekend I fell deep into a hole that seemed inescapable. I was scared, and I was allowing my future to be defined by others. And while this saddened me enormously, I could not help but falling deeper into self-doubt or questioning my goals as a writer, as social worker, and as an [...]

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Many of us live very neatly within the boundaries of what we consider ourselves capable of at any given point. This means, we stick to activities that we already know that we can be successful in, drawing our expertise and authority around us, and existing within the comfortable context of lived experience and perceived strengths.  I [...]

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Happy Sunday Marzipanlings!! How are you guys doing? I feel like this was a stressful week for many people, so I hope that you are recouping properly with a delightfully stressfree Sunday filled with pajamas, coffee, and some good body positive blog reading. Truth be told, I’ve scheduled you ahead this week, because I needed [...]

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